wonderfully unhappy

I see those cheerful eyes

Bright and sparkling

Moist and tender

Weary and heartbreaking

Look at that winsome smile

Sweet and inviting

As a rainbow arches in the sky

Beautifully despairing

She goes around laughing

Playful and cheery

But in this mirror of truth

I see her…

Perfectly dreary

chapter 1: my prince uncharming

i have always dreamt of a happily ever after

The prince that will hold me in his arms.

My knight in shining armor.

As I stare at his beautiful face

As he walks closer towards me

Reaching out and gently holding my face

As he kisses my lips gently

I could hear the music fading

As the scene darkens and says ‘the end’

Isn’t that how it always is?

Forever and ever in happiness we’ll spend.

But as I lay in my bed,

Allowing my pillow to share in my tears

Seeing the path that lies before me

That path I have come to fear

I know that in a few minutes

I shall hear you say goodbye

To take one last look

At the love that now came to die

Where is happy in my happily ever after?

Why am I all alone in this wretched corner?

A broken promise I held on to

A shattered future with you.

so i had a discussion again with my dad about networking. during pastor ray ann fuentes' i guarantee you my mind was working the whole time. i was thinking about my family's needs, my mom's work, my dad's dog training, and vmobile.

I KNOW THERE ARE NEGATIVE POINTS TO VMOBILE AND I KNOW THAT THERE ARE POSITIVE POINTS TO IT TOO.

what i dont like about vmobile is that the reason why some people join is because they are attracted by what they vmobile people have; the cars, the houses, the expensive gadgets, etc. i dont like that some  people join just to be rich or richer. i dont like how they get envious or greedy. i dont like how in time they become so attached to the money.

but there are good sides too. i like that it gives opportunity to the uneducated to make money. i like that gives people a chance to a better living.i like how it helps those who are in need. 


i understand what my dad is trying to say, but i am not joining it for getting rich. im joining vmobile to help my mother and my grandparents. my mom works for our own company and she doesnt make a lot. she has 4 children to feed. my dad is a dog trainer, and i dont know how much he makes. probably very little. its not enough for our tuition fees, electric and water bills, groceries, clothes, school stuff, etc combined. ITS NOT!!! i believe vmobile will help us greatly because i dont want to ask my mom for gas money every 2 days. i dont want to ask for weekly allowance so she can spend it on my brothers. i dont want to ask for money everytime i go out or everytime i need or want to buy something. i dont want my grandparents to keep working abroad to pay for my brothers' tuition fees. i dont want that my mom stresses about groceries or bills because she doesnt know where to get the money. i dont want that. and im not even sure if my dad sees that cause he doesnt pay the bill. he doesnt know what my mom has to pay for. he doesnt know how much our tuition fees our. he doesnt know what my brothers and i buy for school. he doesnt know how much we spend when we go out. he doesnt know how much gas i use going to school and back. he doesnt know how much gas mommy pays for everytime jimmy has to bring my brothers to school and pick them up.

i dont want to get attached to money. i dont want to be greedy. i dont want to love money for than God. i  just want to help my mother. and ill keep praying.

what an experience!

at 12:30 PM today my friends and i were just hanging out in my car watching titanic. i parked the car in front of the gym because by 1 o'clock i had to go to the physical therapist. so it was already 12:50 PM and a car was starting to park beside my car, and LO AND BEHOLD!!!! IT WAS MIKE SILUNGANG'S CAR!!!! so my friends and i were already like getting all giddy because he is such a cutie pie!

and then....... we see THREE doors opening, which means he has TWO of his friends with him!! so we were like

but I wasnt expecting to see my biggest bball crush Rob because he had his own car BUTTTTTT when the passenger's seat closed, I SAW HIMMMM!!! WE STARTED SCREAMING LIKE MANIACS! AND I MEAN SCREAM! THE LOUDEST SCREAM I CAN MUSTER!!

THIS IS PROBABLY HOW WE LOOKED LIKE!

AND THENNNNN

they were walking towards my car because they had to pass it before going to the gym so we were like SHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! and we pretended to watch the paused titanic movie. then when they passed, i tried to take a freakin picture! and he suddenly looked BAM!!!!

i turned to face front immediately!! still so kilig! my blood was like in my head! and we were all freaking out! WE STARTED SCREAMING AGAIN WHEN THEY WERENT TOO NEAR ANYMORE! 

but thennnn they sat on the benches near my car so i just played it cool you know, since my car is NOT TINTED.

then i realize it was 1pm already and i had to go down. so we waited for them to get back inside their car before we went down and i wanted to be all like. 

but i do believe i looked like this

then when they left we tried to see if our screams were heard from the inside. i let my 2 friends who were with me, and another teammate stay by the benches as i went inside my car to scream, and i they started laughing!!!! IT WAS FREAKIN AUDIBLE! I WANTED TO SLAP MYSELF IN THE FACE! I AM NEVER GONNA STAY WHILE HES THERE ANYMORE

CAN ANYONE SAY EMBARRASSING??